Sam was very dehydrated when He woke up this am for pain meds. So Had serious prayertime. Coaxed him in to sipping it from the medicine dropper. So I am now getting him to drink some water. Hope to be able to get him drinking from a cup soon.

 

Sam had 4 of his fron teeth pulled. They had died. He is having some problems with his bones right now. I didn't know anything was wrong with him until around February when he kept complaining or ear pain. I never saw any ear problems checking myself. Took him to our family practice doc. even he said his ears are fine.One month later he actually verbalized that Sammy's teeth hurt. So I decided to take him to a dentist. Some days he wouldn't want to eat.. I believe from the pain. The dentist told use then that his teeth felt "spongy" or really soft and suggested we use floridated water( allow him to drink it)To help strengthen his teeth??  One of my children told him that we drink filtered water and use tooth paste that doesn't contain flouide. So the dentist thought it was a simple case of Sam having spongy teeth from a lack of flouride in his diet. But refered us to a ??periodontist,endodontist??? for evaluation. The endo?? thought he felt a tumor or something that didn't belong there in Sam's upper gums. He also wanted to look inside to make sure that it wasn't something really bad or too close to his brain so. He began xrays and MRI. It appeared to be localized to the area in front of his ear..Hence the pain in his ear for over a month or more. ?? not sure if it was lymph related..ie) drainage or what. btu it was removed. Sam had nerve damage all of his front top 4 teeth had died and had to be removed. the rest of his teeth all had to be capped to protect them. He doesn't know if the teeth still in his gums are alive or dead. Sam has had a few fevers recently and has elevated liver enzymes,elevated platelets and elevated white blood cells. Theywant to recheck his blood in 2 weeks.

He is to see the endo on thurs for followup. His surgery friday was at CMC under general anesthesia at same day surgery so we came home as soon as they felt comfortable with him leaving. The endo has been calling us alot to check on Sam. Really nice guy. God blessed us with a few good people to care for him. They didn't even give us trouble about our lack of vaccinations. I was kinda worried about that. All were courteous and respectful and didn't act weirded out by us praying for and over Sam. Right before the anestheiologist carried him into the OR we prayed that Sam would be happy,calm ,peaceful and relaxed. He was giggling like a silly little drunk man when he was carried away. Anurse called from the OR after they started working on us to tell us that God answered that prayer that he was giggly till he was put under and that the surgery was going well. it took almost 4.5 hours. She(the RN) called us from the OR to update us hourly which gave me lots of comfort. We were only expecting a 2 hour surgery.  Overall things seem God ordained. My only complaint is upon returning home ..i guess the stress had gotten to dh.. he was fairly rude to me all evening.Upset that I had not planned what we'd have for dinner, I hadn't made tea for him. We went to hospital together and stayed there all day together fine. But at home I felt very attacked. I was too fatigued to even think about anything so I went to bed. Someone woke me up to give Sam his pain med. then I went back to sleep. I didn't really eat much friday or yesterday. I am still quite exhausted. today I am having

less contractions today..like 4-6 per hour so they have spaced out. But I still feel quite crampy like af cramps. Baby still moves alot. So I am not really worried. I don't feel like I am in real labor anymore liek I felt yesterday. It was probably from all the stress.

I still want to finish cleaning my house before I have the baby.

Oh .. Sam is up playing with his cars and coloring and seems better since I 've gotten water into him. I am planning to give him some soft solids today ..like applesauce, potatoes mashed or maybe custard. he is starting to look a bit puny. I appreciate ALL of the prayers for us that we can get. I see prayer working.

I need to rest because I am too tired to behave. May pop in again later. I am geeting AOL broadband soon so it will be easier to get and STAY online without being bumped. Thank You!!!!

 

Blessings, Angie W.

Kayla and David working really hard to get the house clean.

I hope to put up bassinet soon.

Blessings,Angie

 

I haven't been here in awhile. Lots to update. Kerri if you try to call I am unreachable until bellsouth completes porting my number back to them. WARNING!!!! Never ever never ever sign up for SONROCKET they are a poor attempt for VOiP service. We finally go our kitchen water pipes fixed.

We need to redo the floor now. It looks horrible. Actually worst than that.

I am once again tired of presents Princess brings in. I will NOT name at this time..the contents of her last few presents...

The children are working really hard on their dancing. I thought we'd miss dancing at kingdom's feet.

But the children actually like Ressurection Dance Ministry a lot more. Have lots more fun and love their teachers Miss Teresa and Ms. Linda. They complained about missing them alot while they were gone on their mission trip to Israel.

Speaking of trips the girls and I are praying about whether we want to try to raise money to go on a trip to the

azusa street centennial Tuesday through Friday, April 25-28 2006 On Saturday April 29, the Centennial will climax in two great Coliseum meetings as all the diverse streams of ministry flow together to form a mighty river of Pentecostal unity.

We'll have to seriously pray about it and ask for God's direction.

We are expecting a new baby in July. Also we are needing to make to more home repairs.  My heart would like to go. And it would require major fund raising. We already have plans for fund raising for dance camp the coming July 2006. So maybe that is enough especially with the new baby.

We'll see.

For though we walk in the flesh,

we do not war according to the flesh.

For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in GOD for pulling down strongholds,

casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God,

bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,

and beign ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled.

II Corinthians 10:3-6

I usually find journal entries cathartic. But since it and everthing else lately has been a chore I have been avoiding it.

I am here but barely.

My children..the twins birthday is tommorrow and they have notning and I am too overwhelmed to think.

I feel so isolated  and alone. I wish I had another adult in the house to help me for awhile just until I feel better at least.

Well now I shall return to work on my house.

Regards,

Angie

I am having a very hard time these past few days. I have felt soo very  heart broken. Every thing  brings me to tears. I think I'm grieving for Morgen again. I've be avoiding my earth sister. She feels it isn't right or healthy to mourn your loss after a few weeks. I haven't talked with dh lately about my feelings. I feel like I am not allowed to feel. Like I must move on all the time for everyone else. But I need to think about Morgen for a little while. I think it is okay not to not be ready to 100 percent go back to regular life and schedule just yet. I have a myraid of feelings right now but don't have words for them. I must go to bed . We are driving girls up to Camp Lurecrest immediately after church.

Please Pray for me ..I don't feel up to prayiing for myself right now.

Jodie

Thank You for you're excellent advice. I forget sometimes that Ronnie is grieving over his daughter as much as I. Even though he doesn't appear to me to show it. We are esuch different creatures..men and women.

Things make more sense to me than it has in a long time. I appreciate you and Emi so much. Thank You 2 for pulling me out of myself.

Blessings,

Angie W.

 

Af has come for a visit. We aren't pregnant. That would have been interseting with a due date of March 8th. My milk is still dwindled ..don't know why.

Dealing with spiritual attacks again. The devil it out to kill steal and destroy.

We finally agreed that watching late night tv is detrimental to our children. So now what is happening.. hmm

dh is letting the children play outside till 10pm instead. It seems that we get an understanding.. we ARE trying to raise godly people AREN'T we??  Last night something in me said don't go to bed at 9pm like you normally do. GO outside. So I went for a walk. I saw 2 drug deals right before my eyes and about 5 guys just sitting and drinking.

I gotta pray more.

He's going for the jugular.I will NOT let my children get hurt for stupidity.

Write more maybe late must go pray.

 

I have done alot of praying this week. I had let the enemy sneak up on me an inhabit my thoughts without noticing. Till I did my bible study then..... wham like a ton of bricks I saw how a tiny little thought had made a nest in there. I am so sorry GOD for my not kicking that thought out sooner. I feel such a since of relief and peace and praying is easier today than 2 days ago.

We are waiting to do a hpt on Sunday. I'm on cd 36 today. sunday will be cd 40. I've been fearful of doing a hpt.  I have symptoms of pregnancy..but I have been crampy since saturday july 2nd. Like af cramps. No spotting or anything. I am afraid since I just lost Morgen in April. I know GOD'S hand is on me a he will be here no matter what. I just feel so emotionally fragile at this moment concerning pregnancy. God will sustain me. He is God no matter what!!

This week we are preparing our 3 oldest to go away to Christian camp next week. Buying last minute stuff. Packing bags. I will only have 2 at home. It is nice for a dya. Then I miss them all terribly. God will sustain me.  

I am going to continue to work on our homeschool and chore schedule while they are gone.

I am making a syllabus of sorts but leaving the dates off so I don't feel late if we need a break.

Dear Lord Please Help me be the helpmeet you designed me to be for my dh. Please let me be the right mother for each of my children. Please let me be happy and content joyful of the home you have blessed me with. In Jesus Name!!!Amen!!!!!

HA HA

Thank my lovely sister and her beau Rahmaire for coming over and cheering me up.

It was just another Sunday till they showed up with presents and cards and money.

I really appreciated it.

I don't feel today like I have anything left in me to share with anyone. I am emotionally and physically exhausted. I think we spent way to much time marching in 90 degree weather in the Harrisburg NC Annual 4th of July parade. It was fun but exhausting. Then We went to Frank Liske Park. Ronnie and David fishing.

Today we went to church. Then Kara and I to Walmart and Bloom. Now I'm really exhausted. Then 2 little kids were fighting in front of my house.

Now Ronnies letting the kids stay out late again.. I just ready to go to bed. Every night I go to bed so exhausted that I don't want to wake up in the morning. Then when morning comes I hear the still small voice of God gently bidding me to arise. Telling me how much he loves and wants me.  So I get up.